There are times every now and then that I want my voice to be heard and to just make the world stop and listen. When something happens that I don't completely agree with, I want to be able to speak up and say my piece and then sit down and shut up. But because lately I can't seem to be able to do that, I usually just rant to my close friends about the situation for weeks then get depressed that I can't seem to fight back.
Let me just get this clear now. My semester is screwed up big time. It has been for a long time. It got screwed up when I got sick for 3 weeks and all I did was sleep, barely eat, and play Atlantica. I know where I went wrong this semester.
I got kicked from the Performing Knights show because I had to drop 3 classes. Granted, one was voice lessons but that's still considered a class. They seem to think that my academics are suffering too much for me to be involved with the show. Ok, I can understand where they're coming from but what upset me was that I wasn't given any chance to show that I could fix things. Maybe they're giving me the chance but no one told me. I haven't talked to any of them since the last rehearsal that I went to which was on Thursday of last week. This is the longest I've ever gone without talking to at least someone from the group.
I've spent most of my semester playing Atlantica and I can tell that my run on there is slowly coming to an end. I'm nearing the level cap, I've started joining the high levels in dungeons and I've made nearly 400 million gold (which is a lot for someone like me). Yes, I know it's affected my academics and I wish I would have seen it sooner but I honestly do not regret playing the game for so long. I've made a really good friend out of the game and I think that's how things were supposed to play out.
I've been slowly trying to recover but I doubt there's any saving for the semester. I'll be happy if I pull C's in my 4 remaining classes. I'm going to start over next semester and try to fix things my way, at my own pace since that's all that I seem to be able to do right now. I'm getting tested hopefully over Christmas Break (I mean, Winter Break - for you people that demand to be politicaly correct whom I hate but that's another blog entirely) for learning disabilities, the works so we'll see what's wrong with me.
Today? Struggle through an Accounting test, do a skit for Acting class, vacuum the rugs in my room, do the rest of my dishes and get ready for the Trick - Or - Treators that will be coming through my hall around 7pm. Our hall is doing Wizard of Oz this year and I'm Glenda. Not too thrilled because I don't care for her much but it was the only costume I could throw together easily and I had a wand for it. Next year, I'm going to be either a Jedi or Elphaba. Be sweet to be both or a ninja. Hmm.....